I just had my JLPT. omg i don't know how well i'll do for this but i hope it'll be a decent mark, (please please be above average). The exam wasn't as hard as the standard of my japanese exam at the language centre and not as tough and challenging and indirect, but because of the difference in the syllabus i guess there were some things that i couldn't answer as i haven't learnt. i studied like some mad person for this, while others just took it easily. oh well, that's just me, i'm a mozafacking nerdy mofo when it comes to japanese 8D the listening scared the shit out of me. i don't have high hopes for it as i know i made a few mozafacking mistakes argh! i wrote the correct answer but changed it to the wrong one later. knn. but halfway through the exam, i began to realised that i wasn't doing the test according to what's right and what's wrong, but i did according to my own intincts. (!!!) this sometimes happen to me during an exam when i start to become oblivious to the correct and wrong (techinically) and start to lurk in the grey areas. i just write an answer which my intincts tell me to and what i FEEL sounds/looks/is correct which is MOZAFACKING DANGEROUS AND RISKY (and downright dumb)! some stupid person i am yessu. oh well, gotta wait till march for the results! i can't wait actually! HAHAHA. :D

and i feel so childish. SO SO MOZAFACKING CHILDISH. screeewwww me. i realised that i bought machi's album apart from the reasons that i think nicky is so cute and pinchable and likeable, and that machi makes kick-ass hip hop music, but also for a really really stupid reason that couldn't get anything sillier than this. *coughcough* 'cause andrew (machi didi) reminds me of a certain person. so much so that i've become obssessed. gawd i think i have some problems with my brain but yes, i can become very obsessive at times. to the point that i start to lie to myself that i think that andrew is that person and to tell myself that to obssess over that person is okay because we don't know each other. i lie to myself to make myself feel better and that kinda thing, and it all starts when my dreams and fantasies start to take control of reality. my mind is just so wrong and fkdup. someone tell me to quick GETOVERIT. this is SO unhealthy i gotta get out of it quick.

whatever it is, i <3 Machi, for now. (: 我爱周星星! HAHAHA. that mv cracks me up everytime. x)

oh yes, my wish to santa this christmas. i hope he kills her, period. _|_ YES I AM A LUNATIC =1